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Monday, October 11, 2004

I am getting far too accustomed to saying goodbye. I know it is not goodbye goodbye, but it is still a goodbye and it still hurts almost the same. How strange a feeling to get so used to someone's presence, so used to their hand inside yours, so completely used to the sound of their voice ringing actually in your ears, not through a telephone, and then have to say goodbye to it when it really starts to feel Normal, when it really starts to feel tangible. I am taunted and I am teased by time, I can almost hear it laughing at me. It gives me minutes, hours and days with her, just enough to get used to having her next to me, and the moment it starts to feel so perfectly normal and right, time takes her away again.

Sarah Joelle does not like goodbye's, and to be honest, I never have either. I try to make us both feel better by explaining it is only a tiny delay between two "hello's" but fooling myself is much harder than I thought it would be, and it does not numb me to the look on her face when I say goodbye to her at the airport gate. I am getting far too seasoned to the long drive to drop her off at an airport, far too used to the drive home alone after she's boarded the plane...but the sting I feel when I have to walk from the gate to my car parked in the 30 minute parking will never dull. As I said, time is taunting me, and time is teasing me; not only does she have to leave at some point, but up to this point I have had to drive anywhere from an 1.5 hours to 5 hours just to say the goodybe that I hate saying so much. Then, to add insult to injury and pour salt all over the wound, I have to drive that 1.5 or 5 hours back the way I just came from, alone.

Maybe I am being dramatic, maybe I am thinking too much, but I am so tired of saying goodbye. I do know that the hello that comes before it makes it all worth while, but it is times like this that the goodbye really kicks me while I am down. Karma is a funny thing, and I really can not wait to see the rewards we will both see for the sacrafices we are making today.

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Monday, October 11, 2004 The Art of Goodbye I am getting far too accustomed to saying goodbye. I know it is not goodbye goodbye, but it is still a goodbye and it still hurts almost the same. How strange a feeling to get so used to someone's presence, so used to their hand inside yours, so completely used to the sound of their voice ringing actually in your ears, not through a telephone, and then have to say goodbye to it when it really starts to feel Normal, when it really starts to feel tangible. I am taunted and I am teased by time, I can almost hear it laughing at me. It gives me minutes, hours and days with her, just enough to get used to having her next to me, and the moment it starts to feel so perfectly normal and right, time takes her away again. Sarah Joelle does not like goodbye's, and to be honest, I never have either. I try to make us both feel better by explaining it is only a tiny delay between two "hello's" but fooling myself is much harder than I thought it would be, and it does not numb me to the look on her face when I say goodbye to her at the airport gate. I am getting far too seasoned to the long drive to drop her off at an airport, far too used to the drive home alone after she's boarded the plane...but the sting I feel when I have to walk from the gate to my car parked in the 30 minute parking will never dull. As I said, time is taunting me, and time is teasing me; not only does she have to leave at some point, but up to this point I have had to drive anywhere from an 1.5 hours to 5 hours just to say the goodybe that I hate saying so much. Then, to add insult to injury and pour salt all over the wound, I have to drive that 1.5 or 5 hours back the way I just came from, alone. Maybe I am being dramatic, maybe I am thinking too much, but I am so tired of saying goodbye. I do know that the hello that comes before it makes it all worth while, but it is times like this that the goodbye really kicks me while I am down. Karma is a funny thing, and I really can not wait to see the rewards we will both see for the sacrafices we are making today. eloquently said by \| 6:53 PM \| \| \|	Tyler Knott Productions Tyler Knott Photography Vimeo Tumblr Twitter Clutch Del.icio.us MySpace Last.fm LinkedIn Resumé Atom Feed Twitters follow me on Twitter Horizon Expanders McGraw Donovan Dave Morin Flickr Blog Jaymie Keller Kevin Casey Nate Warner Rachel Hoffenberg Sarah Joelle Sarah Joelle's Music My Photography Past Downpours Copyright This work is licensed under a Creative Commons License.