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Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Four months and 21 days ago I started something. I had no idea how much it would change my life; I had no idea how much you would grow to mean to me, and I had no idea how far away you really are. It's been a long time since I've written and a lot of that is attributed to the fact that you was here visiting for 3 weeks, 3 amazing weeks that I was so lucky to have. Those 3 weeks came and passed and on Christmas Eve you went back home; I had no idea I would miss you this much.

How far is 802 miles? How far is it to the very end of my rope? Will there be a knot at the end or just the casual fraying of every strand of my life braided together, waiting for me to slide off? Minutes turn to weeks, and hours to months as my life becomes measured in the fluctuations of the airline wars, the current price of a round trip ticket, the silent sludge that time becomes when you are away and the screaming flash it is when I am finally with you again. My life, our relationship is measured more in time spent apart, than time spent together. I can hear your singing if I shut my eyes. I smell you at night in the wrinkles of my pillow case; my eyes close too hard in the race to sleep. I sleep to dream and I dream of you. I had no idea I would miss you this much.

Ever notice how forever never starts anywhere near when you want or need it to? Forever is the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that I swear I can get to....if it'd just stop moving further away. I suppose it is normal, I suppose it feels like this for everyone in this situation and I suppose it will eventually hurt a lot less, and all will be well, but the adjustment is tough. It is hard to say goodbye more than hello, it is hard to wipe your tears more than share your smiles and it is so hard to not know the next time I will see you.

We will be fine, I promise. I promise. I promise. That's three times I promised. I'm going to kick forever in the ass though because he's really starting to annoy me with how far behind he is.

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Tuesday, January 04, 2005 I Had No Idea Four months and 21 days ago I started something. I had no idea how much it would change my life; I had no idea how much you would grow to mean to me, and I had no idea how far away you really are. It's been a long time since I've written and a lot of that is attributed to the fact that you was here visiting for 3 weeks, 3 amazing weeks that I was so lucky to have. Those 3 weeks came and passed and on Christmas Eve you went back home; I had no idea I would miss you this much. How far is 802 miles? How far is it to the very end of my rope? Will there be a knot at the end or just the casual fraying of every strand of my life braided together, waiting for me to slide off? Minutes turn to weeks, and hours to months as my life becomes measured in the fluctuations of the airline wars, the current price of a round trip ticket, the silent sludge that time becomes when you are away and the screaming flash it is when I am finally with you again. My life, our relationship is measured more in time spent apart, than time spent together. I can hear your singing if I shut my eyes. I smell you at night in the wrinkles of my pillow case; my eyes close too hard in the race to sleep. I sleep to dream and I dream of you. I had no idea I would miss you this much. Ever notice how forever never starts anywhere near when you want or need it to? Forever is the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that I swear I can get to....if it'd just stop moving further away. I suppose it is normal, I suppose it feels like this for everyone in this situation and I suppose it will eventually hurt a lot less, and all will be well, but the adjustment is tough. It is hard to say goodbye more than hello, it is hard to wipe your tears more than share your smiles and it is so hard to not know the next time I will see you. We will be fine, I promise. I promise. I promise. That's three times I promised. I'm going to kick forever in the ass though because he's really starting to annoy me with how far behind he is. eloquently said by \| 10:18 PM \| \| \|	Tyler Knott Productions Tyler Knott Photography Vimeo Tumblr Twitter Clutch Del.icio.us MySpace Last.fm LinkedIn Resumé Atom Feed Twitters follow me on Twitter Horizon Expanders McGraw Donovan Dave Morin Flickr Blog Jaymie Keller Kevin Casey Nate Warner Rachel Hoffenberg Sarah Joelle Sarah Joelle's Music My Photography Past Downpours September 2008 August 2008 July 2008 June 2008 May 2008 April 2008 March 2008 February 2008 January 2008 December 2007 November 2007 October 2007 September 2007 August 2007 July 2007 June 2007 May 2007 April 2007 March 2007 February 2007 January 2007 December 2006 November 2006 October 2006 September 2006 August 2006 July 2006 June 2006 May 2006 April 2006 March 2006 February 2006 January 2006 December 2005 November 2005 October 2005 September 2005 August 2005 July 2005 June 2005 May 2005 April 2005 March 2005 February 2005 January 2005 December 2004 November 2004 October 2004 September 2004 August 2004 July 2004 June 2004 May 2004 April 2004 March 2004 February 2004 January 2004 December 2003 November 2003 October 2003 September 2003 August 2003 July 2003 June 2003 May 2003 April 2003 March 2003 Copyright This work is licensed under a Creative Commons License.